A reflection of memory.
Looking into this Holiday week, I see a reflection of the year gone by. Like looking into a finely polished mirror, It reflects the good and the bad equally showing only the surface and lacking the true depth in its clarity. How, sometimes I wish my own memory worked that way, remembering only the glancing images passing by.
It has been an interesting year. A year which I'm not sure is worth remembering, yet a year that has made progress from the years before. Does that make sense?
Work has been about the same all year. I got to travel some, looks like I'll be travelling a bunch more soon. In general, my personal life has basically been on a hum drum even keel. Finances still suck, but I've been able to maintain. Can't say I'm making a lot of headway, but I guess my ship isn't sinking as fast now. I can't say that I recall any grand great things happening this past year for me. Relationships are still at a standstill. My friends that I call true friends are still true. The wishy washy ones, well, still are. I'd like to say I've have developed that special relationship I've been looking for.To be honest, I've spent so much time alone, I don't know if I even would recognize her standing in front of me. So if you've walked by expecting more than I've given, slap me upside the head so I'll snap out of my stupor. Thank you.
Looking into this Holiday week, I see a reflection of the year gone by. Like looking into a finely polished mirror, It reflects the good and the bad equally showing only the surface and lacking the true depth in its clarity. How, sometimes I wish my own memory worked that way, remembering only the glancing images passing by.
It has been an interesting year. A year which I'm not sure is worth remembering, yet a year that has made progress from the years before. Does that make sense?
Work has been about the same all year. I got to travel some, looks like I'll be travelling a bunch more soon. In general, my personal life has basically been on a hum drum even keel. Finances still suck, but I've been able to maintain. Can't say I'm making a lot of headway, but I guess my ship isn't sinking as fast now. I can't say that I recall any grand great things happening this past year for me. Relationships are still at a standstill. My friends that I call true friends are still true. The wishy washy ones, well, still are. I'd like to say I've have developed that special relationship I've been looking for.To be honest, I've spent so much time alone, I don't know if I even would recognize her standing in front of me. So if you've walked by expecting more than I've given, slap me upside the head so I'll snap out of my stupor. Thank you.
Mom battled cancer and won. Interesting how the worst thing to touch your life becomes the best thing when the doctors say the disease is gone.
Looking to the coming year, what do I see? More of the same, I guess. I guess I'll have to wait and see.
*taps on the monitor glass*
I wonder sometimes, which side of this thing am I really on?
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